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The first of the month
Jul. 1st, 2011 07:34 pm I did as I threatened and stepped on the scales again this morning and they're registering 12st 8lb. This is excellent news so far as I'm concerned - the weight that I lost in the first few weeks of the year has been mostly kept off, rather than yo-yoing back up to mid 13s as has happened over the past few years that I've been keeping this journal. Thus, I'm hopeful that another few weeks push will lose more and I'll get back to closer to where my bodyweight is healthy for me.
It's a good time to reflect that there is no real body weight method that tells the whole story about anyone and that healthy is in the hands of the individual. If you take regular exercise and eat a balanced diet, then the number on the scales actually means nothing at all. If your body mass is preventing you from doing stuff, then it's probably not healthy for you as an individual. But neither is it healthy to maintain a low weight through skipping meals, eating nothing but cabbage or regularly subjecting your body to vomiting, laxatives or amphetamines. That's about how you look and worries me enormously. I know that my relationship to food is not necessarily a good pattern, but at least I've never developed a full-blown eating disorder, although sometimes I've been hugely tempted.
So this is about my personal goals - I know that I was my most happy at 10 stone, but I'm a bit older now and I'm quite prepared that I won't get that low. Also that I can be patient and not lose weight enormously quickly. So long as the trend is holding or downward, for the time being - that's a good thing!
It's a good time to reflect that there is no real body weight method that tells the whole story about anyone and that healthy is in the hands of the individual. If you take regular exercise and eat a balanced diet, then the number on the scales actually means nothing at all. If your body mass is preventing you from doing stuff, then it's probably not healthy for you as an individual. But neither is it healthy to maintain a low weight through skipping meals, eating nothing but cabbage or regularly subjecting your body to vomiting, laxatives or amphetamines. That's about how you look and worries me enormously. I know that my relationship to food is not necessarily a good pattern, but at least I've never developed a full-blown eating disorder, although sometimes I've been hugely tempted.
So this is about my personal goals - I know that I was my most happy at 10 stone, but I'm a bit older now and I'm quite prepared that I won't get that low. Also that I can be patient and not lose weight enormously quickly. So long as the trend is holding or downward, for the time being - that's a good thing!